About Me

I am 45 year old mother of 4 .... I am currently going thru so many changes in my life that I consider myself to be a "misplaced mom".

I guess I should begin with my first change this year .... I was laid off my job in March. I was employed for over a year at a local car dealership, and I really loved working there! Apparently I wasn't cut out for the job, or so I was told....they laid me off, and that's all I have to say about that. As crazy as it sounds .... I would go back in a heartbeat!!!

Being laid off did give me opportunities that I would never have had if I were employed. The first was spending time with my daughter, Becky and 2 year old granddaughter Isabella. Becky was 7 months pregnant at the time. Her husband James was deployed in Afghanistan, and I was able to be there for her at a moments notice. James was delayed getting back in time for the baby's birth, and I went thru labor & delivery with Becky. I was able to pick him up from the airport the next day....and I was able to be there for Becky, Izzy, and little Alexis when he went back to Afghanistan....He came home in July and they moved back to NC...I miss my girls so much!!! I miss swinging on the porch with Izzy, I miss the little stories we used to tell, I miss shopping with them, especially Izzy. She was quite a shopper!!! She would pick up a bracelet or a necklace and go, "Oh Ahma, this is so beautiful!"  And I miss the phone ringing and hearing her little voice saying "Ahma, can I come over?"

I, also spent time with my son Chris....we call him Scooter ....always have. Just about every Friday we would meet his girlfriend Jillian at the mall for lunch, and then we would shop!!! (do you detect a theme here!!! I love to shop!) Can't tell you the amount of time he would patiently wait in Coach for me!! or would comment...."Oh Mom, you're gonna get in trouble!!!" We also went to NY Giants training camp which was a lot of fun!!! He left in August to go back to college at Brockport ..... So my partner in crime is gone.

My youngest son, Tyler also semi moved out. He is 19. He said I treated him like a 5 year old. I guess if asking questions, having rules, and questioning why he didn't go to work for 3 days, and then quit that job is treating someone like a 5 year old ...I am guilty. He moved in with his dad, who apparently lets him do what he wants.

So....For the first time in 26 years, I find my self with an "empty nest" ..... I am really lost because here I am 45 years old .... no job...no kids....and no idea what I want to do! I have spent the last 26 years of my life or should I say all of my life being something to someone ........ someone's daughter ..... someone's wife .....someone's mother.......I know I am still all those things, but everyone has gone on with their lives, and here I sit...I devoted my life to them, and along the way forgot that I had a life too.